At times I feel like everything has been done. Every idea already dreamed, every adventure and corner of the planet explored, every discovery found and shared. What have I done for the world? What mark have made? Does my life matter for mankind?
I am am still searching, that much is for sure. Chasing my epiphany gets me out of bed each day. Testing the water, just maybe not everything has been done. Just maybe there is more to come.
Yes, this thought does present a paradox coming from the rational optimist I am and my belief that mankind will solve ALL problems in time - as the need becomes paramount. It’s just that on an individual level I feel a responsibility to do more then my brother, to be the one that solves the problem, the one that does the work of 20. (1v19 blog topic for another time).
My best friend says that I’ve already accomplished my share. Made a difference, helped my brother. For example; if even one of the children of my former employees discovers a cure for Brain cancer - then I had a small role in that contribution to this the world. Or maybe the belief that the genetic material I have passed to my sons will someday, sometime make the meaningful change to world history I speak of.
Possibly he is correct. I’ll never be sure. I just can’t shed the belief that there is something more for me to accomplish yet. An epiphany awaiting me. So I search.
I write this sitting in a Da Nang train station, awaiting my long delayed train. learning patience and survival from the moment. my discovery may have to wait another day.
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