Negative emotions are inevitable for everyone. No one makes it thru without being damaged in some way and living with negatives.
I have managed to keep most of my negative emotions in a box; in their place. Not ignored, Not denied. Just managed.
Everyone can list 1000 negatives, but for most people a few float to the top.
Lost love my most powerful negative emotion. Trying to rationalize fairness. Acceptance and understanding of the emotions of a mate. To acknowledge them. To move on from their loss. Most of these emotions are beyond influence and find their own path, their own journey.
But now, Stranded in Paradise; in the midst of the Corona Chaos; its Lost Opportunity I am Resentful of. More negative emotions!
Ahh!! Put it in the box. Manage it. Nothing else can be done. Look for the lesson, the positive.
Use the isolation of quarantine productively. Write, read, listen to music, learn. Maintain a modest routine. Survive, stay alive – see another day. Repeat, repeat.
Tomorrow will be better I am confident. The planet will conquer the beast. I have unwavering belief in the future. My positive belief is not the slight bit tamped by the pandemic.
But Lost Opportunity. That’s where my Resentment is found.
Lost Time. Lost Adventures. Lost Loves. – I have so few remaining.
My small small thoughts look selfish compared to death and loss of many during the Chaos of this pandemic. I agree. I’ll put my Resentment in the box. Move forward.
Look for the next path onward. Take solace in the young… maybe they are learning. How fragile humans all are!! how maybe there’s importance in science!! Maybe. They may understand time better they us, but they still have lessons. This will definitely be one.
Lessons. About Connection. About Faith. About how the Worlds Economy and Information and Emotions are linked. Maybe we are all learning these lessons.
Maybe the education system will re-value Biology as a topic. Giving it a new found recognition. The World needs more Microbiologists!!!
I still feel this Pandemic is just a minor issue for humanity’s survival and health. But its economic impact will be unfathomable. Just maybe it will generate an investment in science to fast-track methods to develop vaccines, to develop solutions for managing safety.
If any of that should happen. Then I should not feel any Resentment. The time will not be lost. Just banked as a lesson. And Opportunity Gained, not Lost.
But today, No onward adventure. No new friends – just isolation. People switch to the opposite sidewalk. Looking down, avoiding eye contact. - a Lost Opportunity to make another friend. And I am resentful!!!
Ok.Back in the box the negative goes. Out comes the future.The endless bright future
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